I can't keep up...with everything. I'm so lost, I don't know what to do. Gonna be on hiatus indefinitely.

-A 

Weird Obsession. Or not.

First half of the year, I already attended a The Script concert, a Lawson gig, and the Wanderland 2013 music festival. Second half of the year's going by so fast and there are tons of tours that will have a Manila stop by this year. A lot of it has already been announced while some are still under negotiation. Some people don't get my obsession with concerts. Yes, a lot of people love music but not everyone's drawn in watching performances live. Some people don't understand the happiness these concerts brings me, even just for a while. No amount of money can level the happiness I felt when I saw Lady Gaga for the first time(I was still in awe the second time!), or the kilig I felt when Justin Timberlake sang Until the End of Time while playing the piano, or the surreal feeling I got while singing and dancing while Katy Perry performs her songs, I can actually go on and on with these stories, with my amazing experiences without even getting tired. All these flashbacks are still fresh in my mind even some happened years ago; And when I hear the songs I already heard played live, I can't help but smile. And that smile isn't just in my lips but it's all the way through my heart. It feels good to watch your favorite artists perform in flesh, in eyesight, out of an earshot, a few meters away from you. It's true there are perks when you buy good seats but the general admission is good enough if you can't afford the big deals. Hearing your favorite songs performed live while watching the screen or trying to watch the little people all the way down is better than being at home and listening through your earphones on your iPod. But if you have the means, hell, I wouldn't think twice! If you're wondering, yes I already experienced watching in all kinds of seats; From VIP to Patron to Lower Box to Upper Box to General Admission. You might not still get me, you may think I'm crazy and I'm wasting money. Touche, my friend. But this is my point; I'm trying to fulfill my invisible concert bucket list. I get it, you're saving money, and you're thinking you're gonna do this thing when you become rich. Well, I'm saving memories, I don't wanna miss the chance. I wanna look back 30 years from now, smiling and thinking about all those crazy nights singing my hearts out with my then favorite songs. You know what? I think, in the end, we'll both get rich, but we'll have a different kind of wealth, you with money and I with memories. I maybe wrong, but one way or another, I think just one of us is going to be truly happy in our death beds. 

P.S.

I wrote this in the middle of the night when I can't sleep, July 5, 2013 at exactly 12:33am. My thoughts just spilled easily after reading a John Green book. Yes, if you're wondering, I'm a frustrated writer. Is this an essay though? I don't know. But there, that's my thoughts. Thank you for reading. Toodles!

xx

A♥